Earlier today, I checked my tumblr inbox to find that someone had anonymously addressed to me a message. It was simple and concise: You’re ugly, it read. For a second I faltered because no one has ever said this to me directly- I had only said to myself over the years, silently in my mind. The mirrors knows. And for that one second afterwards, I wasn’t certain that the message was totally wrong. But that moment passed quickly and I realized that I actually needed to see/hear these words from someone else (grey-faced as they may be) to be able to see the falsity in them. Like I told the anon, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, so perhaps their eyes have not found anything beautiful in me. There is nothing wrong with that. However, it was wrong that I should agree with them even for a second. I pulled myself back, and in the strangest way this anonymous judgment that someone passed on me, reminded me that I don’t have to hold myself to anybody’s judgment. So thank you whoever you are, for sharing your acid observation of me- it has only reaffirmed my belief that while people are completely entitled to their own thoughts and opinions, it will never define the person I am.
(P.S.- love to my followers who answered that anon for me)